While I was cleaning out the nursery closet, I found a little yellow chicken that was bought for Aven by her Aunt C prior to me finding out I was pregnant with Aven. Surprisingly, it made me really happy to find it, I forgot all about it to tell you the truth. I am excited that Baby C will get to have something that belonged to big sister. I think it is pretty special that I will get to pass the little yellow chicken to our future child. Every time I look at it now, and yes I have looked at it a lot since I found it, it gives me hope. It may sound absurd that a stuffed little yellow chicken could do that to a person but it is much needed right now because this wait is torture.
In 2 weeks, something life changing is going to happen to us. Either Baby C will finally be home or, we will begin grieving the little baby that we have been receiving updates and pictures on for the past 21 days. Both events will have a significant impact on us and therefore the next couple of weeks are going to be really tough. The anxiety, anxiousness, fear, excitement are already in full swing and there are no signs that it will let up until the day is here.
So for now, I will just stare at the little yellow chicken...
Always,
April
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