I never knew I was this impatient, but apparently I am. After our match failed last week, our adoption caseworker asked us if we would like some time to deal with this loss because a match failing is indeed another loss and of hope being squashed again. I immediately said no. I said we will deal with this loss together but I didn't want our adoption process put on hold any longer than necessary.
It has been a week and we have heard nothing which isn't abnormal at all but it still stinks. Waiting as I said before, is no fun at all. I am trying to find things to do with myself in the mean time and so far my focus is on the nursery. I have picked out a bedding set and ordered it. I wouldn't have ever done a gender specific room to begin with so my buying neutral baby bedding wasn't difficult for me to do at all. Picking out which pattern I wanted or which style I wanted, well that was another story. I must have stared at hundreds before I finally decided on one. It was shipped today and should be at my house in a few days.
I am excited about it. I am excited to start and finish a nursery. I know that may sound odd to some but I can't just sit around and do nothing. I have to do something productive and just sitting here is not productive. After the nursery is finished, I will have to find a new project. I will deal with that when the time comes though... until then, I am off to babyland.
Always,
April
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