On Monday, our adoption caseworker called with a potential birth family for us to consider. She gave us a few basics about the birth family. Based on the information the caseworker gave, we decided to have our profile sent to the potential birth mother. The birth mother and birth father live in Florida. We knew that if this was our match and our baby, we would have to go to great lengths to make the long treck to Florida to meet her. She received our file along with 5 others.
After two days of waiting and wondering, we learned that the potential birth mother decided to parent. While we were excited that someone could potentially match with us so soon after our last failed match, we were a little disappointed that we are now waiting again. I have to remind myself that our child is out there, and that baby just wasn't him or her.
On the up side, we now don't have to hop on a plane to Florida at the last minute only to wait out the mandatory 48 hour time period to find out if birth mom would decide to parent or if we would be driving, yes driving, home with a newborn across several state lines. Don't get me wrong, I would travel to the end of the earth and back for my child. But I am just sayin' ...
As far as future potential matches go, I am going to give up my power so to speak. I have asked our adoption caseworker to not contact me in regards to potential birth mothers and instead to contact D. I get easily excited and thus easily deflated with possible news and I am going to give myself a little break for the mean time and allow D to manuver in the driver's seat. D is not going to notify me of when our adoption caseworker calls unless she brings up a scenario he isn't sure about. This should be interesting...I am not sure how long I can manage to "not know" but I am going to give it a shot. My heart and my head both need a time out to just be for a little while.
So for now, I will continue to decorate the nursery and find as many distractions as I can while the time passes. The decorating part is not going quickly by any means so for a little while I will be distracted... I think.
Always,
April
After two days of waiting and wondering, we learned that the potential birth mother decided to parent. While we were excited that someone could potentially match with us so soon after our last failed match, we were a little disappointed that we are now waiting again. I have to remind myself that our child is out there, and that baby just wasn't him or her.
On the up side, we now don't have to hop on a plane to Florida at the last minute only to wait out the mandatory 48 hour time period to find out if birth mom would decide to parent or if we would be driving, yes driving, home with a newborn across several state lines. Don't get me wrong, I would travel to the end of the earth and back for my child. But I am just sayin' ...
As far as future potential matches go, I am going to give up my power so to speak. I have asked our adoption caseworker to not contact me in regards to potential birth mothers and instead to contact D. I get easily excited and thus easily deflated with possible news and I am going to give myself a little break for the mean time and allow D to manuver in the driver's seat. D is not going to notify me of when our adoption caseworker calls unless she brings up a scenario he isn't sure about. This should be interesting...I am not sure how long I can manage to "not know" but I am going to give it a shot. My heart and my head both need a time out to just be for a little while.
So for now, I will continue to decorate the nursery and find as many distractions as I can while the time passes. The decorating part is not going quickly by any means so for a little while I will be distracted... I think.
Always,
April
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