V had her baby today!! We heard from V several times during her very long labor process. We had the chance to speak to her via phone today prior to and after birth of baby. We heard baby cry as baby was weighed and heard baby scream during baby's first bath. We are hoping we will get to see V tomorrow as well as baby. We wish we could open the champagne now and celebrate this amazing moment and though we are enjoying it and realize how special it is, the reality is that baby is still V's baby.
We still have a long road to go before we know if this baby is Baby C or not. We are hopeful but V has a very big decision to make, again. V decided she wanted us to parent in September when we were matched together but V once again will have to decide before she leaves the hospital if this is still her plan. We then get to wait until December for V to decide a 3rd time if we are still to be baby's parents and only then will we truly know if this really is Baby C. Adoption is not an easy road but when Baby C is finally in our arms, we will appreciate how lengthy our road was.
Even though I write about how we have to be realistic about things, our hearts are already invested. There is no way around that. My head can tell my heart all day long to stay quiet and calm but my heart wins everytime.
"If I had to run, if I had to crawl
If I had to swim a hundred rivers, just to climb a thousand walls,
Always know that I would find a way, to get to where you are,
There's no place that far." ~ Sara Evans
Always,
April
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