Officially Matched!

D and I had lunch with our caseworker, A, A's sister and brother in law today. I was nervous as expected. I told D and our caseworker beforehand that I wanted to have a quick lunch and get out of there as quick as I could. My thought was that the least amount of talking we had to do or that I had to do, the better for all parties involved. I was completely floored when we left the restaurant 2 hours later. The time just flew by. I learned that A is hilarious! I laughed so much and smiled so much by pure accident that my face hurt when I left the restaurant. After our 2 hour lunch I discovered there were many things I had in common with A. D and I were absolutely delighted to meet her. I will say that after having known her even for a second, if this doesn't end up working out I will be disappointed because I think she is such a fantastic person. A is one of those people that can smile and the whole room lights up. D and I are still aware that A may change her mind but for the time being she has officially picked us to be the family for her baby.

We are an officially matched family!!!

Being officially matched means that no other birth mother is allowed to look at our family book and we are off the market so to speak. Our picture is still posted on the agency's website for people to see but that is all. Our picture will remain there until we are driving off into the sunset with a baby in our car seat.

We are excited but at the same time, the red flags are still there. We do know that A has tried adoption before and changed her mind after delivering her previous baby to parent therefore we cannot get our hopes up completely. It is not done, until it is done.

I will say this though.. I am still glad to have met A. She has a great sense of humor and is a very bright spirit in this world. Whatever happens, it was just destined to be that way.

While we were sitting in the parking lot of the restaurant, a hummingbird flew from the trees. Hummingbirds to me are little signs, signs from someone up above, looking down on me reminding me that things really will be okay.

Always,

April