Waiting in line...

On Tuesday, I was standing in line at a store paying for the items I was purchasing when I received a phone call. The phone call was from our adoption caseworker. She asked me if I had a minute to chat with her. I was expecting her to ask me "mock" questions about a potential birth mother. Our plan was to "practice" what it would be like when we actually got a real call on how D and I would decide to allow a potential birth mother to view our family album. Both D and I agreed that we could use the practice so that we would know how to handle the situation.

This was not a drill. This was not a "mock" trial. This was real life. The caseworker gave me information on a potential mother and inquired if it would be okay to allow her to view our family book so that she could decide if we were what she was looking for as far as potential parents for her unborn child. It was strange but exciting to hear all about her. We gave permission to the caseworker to allow our file to be shown to her. And now...we wait. In case you haven't gotten a clue yet, we are going to wait a LOT.

It was exciting to have our file looked at only 2 weeks after going "live" but at the same time both D and myself are leery and aren't overly exciting about it all since this will probably not be the first time we have our file looked at. We would hope that we are matched within a reasonable period of time but at the same time, we want it to be right. We want to be comfortable that we made the right decision, for ourselves and for our waiting child.

I received an update from the caseworker yesterday letting me know that the birth mother still hasn't made a decision yet but the birth mother is now thinking of trying to parent her unborn child herself. Whatever happens over the next few days, will not be the end by any means. Both D and myself are probably more excited that our file was looked at already and hopefully that it is a sign of things to come.

I wasn't sure I wanted to post this information and put it all out there but at the same time I wanted someone to know. I kept some of the information to myself and I probably won't post each time someone looks at our family book because after a while it may get old but because this was a FIRST for us, I had to share.

Always,

April